Gate 28: Meaning & Wildflowers
Living in Response
When The Inner Critic Wins
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When The Inner Critic Wins

+ energy activism, everyday coherence, and the science and spirit of oneness in practice.

Episode 061 of Living in Response is the first in a few weeks and tbh I let my inner critic get the best of me :)

Thanks for supporting this raw, unedited, exploration in saying what I gotta say <3

Topics Covered in This Episode:

Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ Why I Stopped Recording (and Why I Hit Record Today)
I open up about nearly three weeks of silence—how self-doubt stopped me mid-episode, and how I remembered that this podcast is for me first. External processing is how I heal, and if others resonate, that’s a beautiful bonus.

2️⃣ Energy Activism = Coherence
I clarify again what I mean by energy activism: it’s not about fixing the world directly—it’s about becoming more coherent within ourselves. And that coherence ripples into the collective field.

3️⃣ The Field Reflects Us
I share how chaos in the world is a reflection of chaos in the collective energetic field—and how increasing our own inner harmony is one of the most direct ways to support planetary healing.

4️⃣ You Don’t Have to Be on the Front Lines
I reflect on the pressure to be an “activist” in the traditional sense—and how painful it can be to be judged for not doing more. I speak to honoring our role and knowing that coherence is real, powerful, and enough.

5️⃣ Everyday Incoherence (and How I Catch It)
I get raw about moments of misalignment—snapping at my partner over avocado toast, spiraling at work, mentally criticizing instead of communicating. And I share how heart-focused breathing helps me shift in real time.

6️⃣ Why Self-Talk Matters More Than You Think
I explore how the inner monologue—the stories we tell ourselves when things go wrong—can either drain our energetic battery or plug the leak. Coherence begins with the voice in our head.

7️⃣ Personal Change Is Proof of Possibility
I briefly map my journey—from poverty, trauma, and rage to purpose, peace, and presence—to show that transformation is not only possible, but energetically real. The field remembers.

8️⃣ Micro-Moments of Choice = Macro Shifts in Energy
I share how seemingly small interactions—cleaning up the kitchen, fixing a mistake at work—are the actual sites of spiritual practice. These moments are where we shift the world, breath by breath.

9️⃣ Why This Still Feels Like My Mission
I admit I’ve been judging myself for still being on this topic of coherence and energy activism. But the truth is, it keeps calling. And I’m learning to trust that.

🔟 Being Coherence, Not Just Talking About It
I reflect on integrity—the gap between what we say and how we live. Energy activism, for me, is about aligning with the values I share publicly in my private, messy moments too.

1️⃣1️⃣ Meditation, Self-Awareness, and Spiritual Maturity
I talk about my recent dive into open awareness meditation (via Mingyur Rinpoche) and how it’s expanded my capacity to notice thought patterns I didn’t even realize were still running.

1️⃣2️⃣ Healing Isn’t Isolation—It’s Integration
I reflect on how “healed” we feel at home alone doesn’t always translate to the world. Real coherence is relational. It’s not just about being calm in solitude—it’s about staying connected while in community.

1️⃣3️⃣ Energetic Foundations Create Cultural Change
I re-ground the mission of energy activism: supporting the energetic layer of life so that what emerges—culture, systems, society—can be rooted in coherence. The unseen affects the seen.

🌀 The Bottom Line:
Being the change isn’t glamorous.
It’s not always visible.
It’s in how we breathe through irritation.
How we talk to ourselves.
How we show up—especially when no one’s watching.
This is energy activism.
This is what spiritual practice actually looks like.

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Mentions & Inspirations:

📘 Always inspired by the work of Ervin Laszlo
🧘‍♀️ Heart-focused breathing & real-life examples
📖 Mingyur Rinpoche – Open Awareness Meditation
🧘‍♀️ Yoga teacher training & yogic philosophy


❤️ Core Message:

Your everyday moments matter.
Your emotions are portals.
Your breath is a tool.
Healing isn’t somewhere you arrive—it’s how you live.
This is spiritual maturity.
This is coherence in action.
And this—this is what I’m here for.


May all beings know peace.

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